I didn’t know whether he understood what I said or not. He looked down at me, grinned again and changed the subject.
“I have some work to do at the estate, and I don’t think I will be able to go out to Schway anytime soon, since I have to show my face at the house of the servant who died,” he said, then, “Can I kiss you goodbye? I won’t be able to see you for a long time.”
“No.” I answered flatly. He didn’t look hurt in the slightest.
“Then can you do it, Lady Alice?”
I looked up at him, fluttered my eyelashes, and said sarcastically, “The Grand Duke is so tall that this small person can’t do that.”
“There is a simple solution for that,” he said. Leaving me no time to reply, he grabbed my waist with both hands and lifted me up into the air like a doll. I looked at him with a puzzled look as he pushed me against the wall. We were at eye level. His gray eyes gleamed as if he found something amusing.
“Should I tell you something interesting?” he said.
“What is it?” Fortunately, my voice was leveled.
His face was still impassive as he answered, “If it were a long time ago, I could never hold you like this.”
“It’s usually hard to hold an adult woman like this unless you exercise quite a lot,” I shot back as a matter-of-factly.
He shook his head. “It’s a little different from that. Should I say I feel like… Superman? Even with the same amount of exercise, I feel stronger and move faster. I don’t think I’d get tired of holding you like this all day long.”
“Isn’t it because you’re in your 20s?”
“It’s a different part from me being in my 20s.”
He smiled as he pressed himself slightly toward me. When this guy smirks I really, really… find him detestable..? I want to smash his face? I want to bite the nape of his neck? The last one seems to have a slightly different feeling, so it would be better to erase it from my head.
Anyway, don’t put these ideas on others! After all, I’m a daughter from a noble family! I lowered my hand holding his shoulder for support and pushed against his chest. He didn’t budge. Heat from his lower body penetrated my light, travel dress, reaching between my legs.
“I’m in trouble…” he said lowly, eyes hooded like a swindler, “The temptation is too strong. Being away for a while might help me too. When I’m with you, I keep forgetting that your body is still young. I wish I could just hold you like this and lock the two of us in my room for a year or so.”
His eyes looking at me were serious. He said it like a joke, but if I were to say ‘yes’, it seems like this madman would really do it.
“So at least give me a goodbye kiss. I’ll try to endure with that,” he continued.
Though his tone was light, his gray eyes were serious. He was different from how he was in our previous life. He had always looked at me with observing eyes, but now his eyes weren’t satisfied with the surface. They want to scour my deepest insides; deep inside my heart.
Could our outward appearances be affecting each other’s minds? No, I don’t think so. Me being prettier and this man being younger don’t seem to affect our feelings. The biggest influence was this man’s attitude towards me and my will to distance myself from him.
But when this man asks for permission in this way, my heart becomes weak. Considering that, formerly, the Duplo trash tried to force me, this kind of attitude must be rare. He’s even royalty. My heart was treacherously happy that he had asked permission from me, even though he could do whatever he wanted. Moreover, that he had not met any other women since he became aware of my existence made my heart flutter.
I patted his cheek with my hand. It was smooth, yet at the same time, there was the rough feeling of a neatly shaved beard underneath. It was different to touch someone out of pure curiosity and not because of work. My gaze traveled to his slightly parted lips.
If someone asked me if I liked kissing, I would say, it was just work for me. In my previous life, even as a teenager, I could kiss and say that I liked and loved someone easily because I needed a place to stay. After that, I did not hesitate to seduce men for work. It’s not like my lips would wear out, so I thought it would be good to use it well since it was a tool that cost no money (except the skincare and makeup for maintenance).
So, if I had to do it now, I would do it without hesitation. I did it with slanted eyes, after that Count Soro, then Slanted Eyes #2. Everyone was mesmerized by the kiss and then were quickly dealt with.
But why can’t I do it easily now? If the price to be released from his hold was a mere kiss, shouldn’t I be able to do it? I couldn’t. I can’t stand putting our lips together, flicking my tongue against his without any sort of emotion. Although this guy has already kissed me, I can’t do it first.